10188 Days !!!

I have lived for 10188 days, I have been a mom  for 1917 days, sober for 1516, and a wife for 360.

 I wonder how many of those days I spent worried about tomorrow? Or how many days I spent worrying about yesterday? Out of the 10188 days my soul has been on this Earth I am willing to bet that more than half of those days I spent living completely outside myself. Worried about what everyone else was doing, worrying about how everyone else was doing.  As I sit here, holding my baby boy I am making a promise to myself that I am going to try my hardest to live for today and live in the now. I want to learn how to stay in "my business." All I can do is take care of my stuff. Whether that be good stuff or hard stuff, I need to make sure I take care of it. Those numbers don't mean anything if I am not paying attention to toDAY. TODAY is all we have and TODAY is what makes up all those other days. TODAY is when we get healthy, TODAY is when we put ourselves first! All those days mean nothing if we are not living in TODAY. 

I don't want to spend any more of my days worrying about the things that I cannot change. I want to live TODAY making choices that make me happy, empowered, and feel at peace. Ask yourself how have you been spending your days here on Earth. If you could would you relive those days the exact same way you did the first time? If the answer is no, then how about living today the way you would have lived yesterday !

Have a Beautiful Tuesday !!!!! I am going to spend TODAY CELEBRATING being ALIVE, HEALTHY, BLESSED, AND LOVED!!!!!!!!!!

10188 days since I was born

1917 days since Lily was born

1516 sober days

133 days since Garner was born

360 days since I married the love of my life